The Broken Path
I imprisoned myself inside my own mind,
Shut myself down and made myself blind,
To the people I hurt and the things I would do,
And those that I loved had not a clue,
That I was so helpless to this battle inside,
Yes-no and no-yes, a constant collide,
A void long ago I tried to fulfill,
No longer a WANT but a NEED for the thrill,
I craved and I yearned for that liquid poison,
To numb all the pain that dwelled deep within,
I lost self-control, lost hold of the reins,
Born with addiction, it's the blood in my veins,
I'll have one, I'll have two, I NEED MORE, I NEED MORE,
A thirst I can't quench, I've felt this before,
I'm dizzy, I'm sick, I can't walk a straight line,
I'm scared for myself, I know I'm not fine,
They don't care, no one does what happens to me,
I was ready to quit and ready to fall,
When I felt such a warmth and heard a voice call,
Then the veil had been lifted and then I could see,
I needed some help, but who could I ask,
Those I called friends were just wolves behind masks,
I cried all alone and finally gave in,
Dropped to my knees, confessed all my sin,
GOD take this disease, I don't WANT it no more,
Please show me the way, show me the door,
The path I've been on keeps taking from me,
The ones that I love and the ones that I need,
So I look up to you Lord, the giver of life,
Who saved me before, the sacrifice,
To light and the guide me into the new,
A life full of love, that's not fake but is true,
God help me to change, to become a good man,
And give me the strength to work through your plan,
I asked and he answered with grace and with love,
He guides my new path from his throne up above,
Yes, I still have this disease, no longer it's slave,
He took all the shackles, the whips, and the chains,
And now I will say you too can be free,
Just open your heart and say this with me,
"Lord I give into you, I accept all your grace,
Be my Light in the darkness, show me the way,
To a life without boundaries, to beat this disease,
Lord be my strength to recovery,
My rock in my sobriety."